- failure: specifically, disappointing people that are important to her (close friends and family, or specifically types like lucifel/ruby/little red or the god that she worships in canon, who she believes herself to have been engaged to) and losing their respect/admiration/love - adjacent to the above, the idea of not living up to her own expectations: not being kind enough, not being helpful enough, doing harm to others in any way - adjacent to that, the idea that she could do something harmful and not be repulsed by it - this goes for being unmoved by it and actually enjoying it equally - the above couple of points can be summarized as a fear of having failed to change from the person that she perceives herself as having been before: 1. completely detached from humanity, just using them as she likes without any regard for their struggles or feelings (like they're bugs is a simile that's come up before if that is helpful) / 2. a monster that ruins everything just by existing and continuing to live - in keeping with that, losing her identity (which can be an incident like the above or otherwise just not being able to keep identity markers that she considers important - her family ties to little red or ruby, her marriage with lucifel, her status as a member of ZRAEL or as a witch) - failing to protect people that are the most important to her - in general, those people being harmed or otherwise dying but especially if she's the one responsible - being restrained, especially for long periods of time - being alone, especially for long periods of time - drowning - losing control of herself - due to the aforementioned god marriage's effect on her perspective and the fact that she is the way that she is tempering specifically is more something that would have the opposite effect; this is particularly about an unsolicited theft of bodily control and being overwhelmed to the point that she can no longer control her thoughts. unless you're god. if it's god it's ok. - having negative emotions forced onto her
Re: Lahabrea & Emet-Selch
Fears
- failure: specifically, disappointing people that are important to her (close friends and family, or specifically types like lucifel/ruby/little red or the god that she worships in canon, who she believes herself to have been engaged to) and losing their respect/admiration/love
- adjacent to the above, the idea of not living up to her own expectations: not being kind enough, not being helpful enough, doing harm to others in any way
- adjacent to that, the idea that she could do something harmful and not be repulsed by it - this goes for being unmoved by it and actually enjoying it equally
- the above couple of points can be summarized as a fear of having failed to change from the person that she perceives herself as having been before: 1. completely detached from humanity, just using them as she likes without any regard for their struggles or feelings (like they're bugs is a simile that's come up before if that is helpful) / 2. a monster that ruins everything just by existing and continuing to live
- in keeping with that, losing her identity (which can be an incident like the above or otherwise just not being able to keep identity markers that she considers important - her family ties to little red or ruby, her marriage with lucifel, her status as a member of ZRAEL or as a witch)
- failing to protect people that are the most important to her
- in general, those people being harmed or otherwise dying but especially if she's the one responsible
- being restrained, especially for long periods of time
- being alone, especially for long periods of time
- drowning
- losing control of herself - due to the aforementioned god marriage's effect on her perspective and the fact that she is the way that she is tempering specifically is more something that would have the opposite effect; this is particularly about an unsolicited theft of bodily control and being overwhelmed to the point that she can no longer control her thoughts. unless you're god. if it's god it's ok.
- having negative emotions forced onto her